#MakeAWish

wish
noun. a desire or hope for something to happen.
verb. feel or express a strong desire or hope for something that is not easily attainable; want something that cannot or probably will not happen.

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Momma and T-Rex circa de 2014

You get three wishes. Only three.

What do you wish for?
Fancy car? Abs? All your debts paid?
I’ll tell you this, one of my wishes would be to never forget my babies as they are now.
I started crying today because I couldn’t remember much of T-Rex at Tank’s age. (7 months) I hate it!!!
Why can’t I remember? Why do I only remember some moments? Sometimes, in a totally normal mom way, not a creepy psycho way I wish I could bottle them up and just keep their tininess in my pocket.
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T-rex in his newborn days.
T-Rex melts me with his brown eyes and Tank has a smile that could change your whole year. I am blessed and I hope you know you are too.
As moms, sometimes we forget that these moments go by quickly and get frustrated easily when the moments are hard to live in.
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T-Rex a few days old..
I don’t want three wishes. I just want to always remember. The giggles at bath time, the way his hair curls on top when it air dries, the messy baby food feedings with Tank when we both wear more than he swallows. I want to remember the first time on the potty and the celebratory dance that follow, the way he only eats half his corn dogs and the look on his face when he opens up presents.
I just want to remember.
I will be old and grey.
Probably still a “hott mess”, but I hope that the Lord preserves my memories.
I cannot. I will not read the book “Love You Forever“, you know the one…..”as long as I’m living my baby you’ll be…”
I just can’t.
 I cry. A LOT. Like big hot, sappy tears.
Even worse, T-Rex leans over and goes “oh momma no cry, awwwww wuv you momma.”
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T-Rex 7 months old.
#BeStillMyHeart
Lawdddd Jesus I am emotional and I need your heavenly peace to consume my anxious heart.
The future is tomorrow. So live in each moment with your babies. The gym can wait. The house chores can wait.
Just live and remember.
No genie can give you those memories.
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T-Rex and momma.

–Emily Roberts

Read my first blog here.

3 thoughts on “#MakeAWish”

  1. Thank you for making me ugly cry. I was thinking about this today, about how fast my baby boy is growing– and how I want to remember it all. I get so caught up in the moment and in my goals that I sometimes forget to soak in the present, and appreciate all the good I have. Thanks Emily! I loved this blog, and it helped me take a step back, and look at the BIG PICTURE.

  2. I think about those moments everyday about my son he is 16 years old now. Wish he was small again with the memories I can remember. Love the way you had wrote this it’s great and emotional.

  3. Loved this one. I’m the same. Can’t remember when he got his first tooth. I know I wrote it down but I don’t even remember where. I only have 1 little guy (now 3 1/2 yrs) and there’s a lot I can’t remember. I guess that’s why I take pictures or post my Car rides with L on FB. So maybe I can remember when it pops up again. Just want to have a book called thoughts by L. Then when I get old I can read it and remember.

    I just started reading “Love you forever” about 2 weeks ago. He asks to hear it so I read it. I think will that be us when I get old? Who knows. So here’s to you Momma from another boyMomma.

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