noun. a desire or hope for something to happen.
verb. feel or express a strong desire or hope for something that is not easily attainable; want something that cannot or probably will not happen.
You get three wishes. Only three.
What do you wish for?
Fancy car? Abs? All your debts paid?
I’ll tell you this, one of my wishes would be to never forget my babies as they are now.
I started crying today because I couldn’t remember much of T-Rex at Tank’s age. (7 months) I hate it!!!
Why can’t I remember? Why do I only remember some moments? Sometimes, in a totally normal mom way, not a creepy psycho way I wish I could bottle them up and just keep their tininess in my pocket.
T-Rex melts me with his brown eyes and Tank has a smile that could change your whole year. I am blessed and I hope you know you are too.
As moms, sometimes we forget that these moments go by quickly and get frustrated easily when the moments are hard to live in.
I don’t want three wishes. I just want to always remember. The giggles at bath time, the way his hair curls on top when it air dries, the messy baby food feedings with Tank when we both wear more than he swallows. I want to remember the first time on the potty and the celebratory dance that follow, the way he only eats half his corn dogs and the look on his face when he opens up presents.
I just want to remember.
I will be old and grey.
Probably still a “hott mess”, but I hope that the Lord preserves my memories.
I cannot. I will not read the book “Love You Forever“, you know the one…..”as long as I’m living my baby you’ll be…”
I just can’t.
I cry. A LOT. Like big hot, sappy tears.
Even worse, T-Rex leans over and goes “oh momma no cry, awwwww wuv you momma.”
Lawdddd Jesus I am emotional and I need your heavenly peace to consume my anxious heart.
The future is tomorrow. So live in each moment with your babies. The gym can wait. The house chores can wait.
Just live and remember.
No genie can give you those memories.
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